I Wanna Feel

Who am I, where is it that i belong, what is it that I am mean to be doing?Why does everything seem to just fall apart all around me.Faith.I'm told to believe that as long as I ask for forgiveness everything will be ok, but why.How can everything be ok if I just say I am sorry and ask for forgiveness.It makes no sense.Hope.Am I really supposed to believe that we have free will when at the same tme they say that God already has a plan for us.Explain to me how that works.That everything I do is already planned and yet its my choice.Love. The one thing i long for more than anything.To find that one person that i could just hold their hand and absolutely know that I am mean to be with her.But what if I find her and let her slip through my fingers, what do I do then?Acceptance.The feeling deep inside that everyone has to have everyone like them.People say that they dont care what other people say or think about them, but its all bull,everyone cares deep down inside.Fear.Scared to be who you really are because you dont want to be an outcast.Staying within the safety zones and never extending out your boundaries.Not wanting to do anything crazy,unable to let loose and let your hair down.Pain.Being hurt in some way shape or form.Emotional trama,Physical tragedy unable to certain the screams building up within.Letting out everything being containred within your lungs and holding nothing back.Wanting to do everything you feel.Anger.Needing to just put your hand through a wall.Not being in control of your emotions or what comes out of your mouth next.The feeling of angst building up within your body that really gets your blood moving.Nothingness.Where we return once we have experienced it all and have nowhere left to fall.