Time for Change

If life hands you lemons you make lemonade, right? But what if life hands you a something the size of a grapefruit? Is there something your supposed to do? Is there some sort of handbook that I never got, something to tell me how to make it through these things without screwing up? How am I supposed to be able to do things if I am so worried about the consequence? Life cant be perfect right, everyone makes mistakes throughout their lives. My life has always been played cool, I just look to how I feel, but I never go with it, I look on with ambition but no action. My heart tells me to go but my mind tells me no, and thats why i get stuck in the middle between where I am and where I want to be. I never work on my courage and just do something that feels right to me. Girls for instance, a topic that makes my brain turn into scrambled eggs just spinning like a smoothie in a blender not noing which way is up. When I like a girl I basically do nothing and then get jealous when she finds someone else, when I shouldnt. If I want something so much, I should be able to take matters into my own hands and I dont know, maybe actually asking that girl out, but no I sit around and just think about how I like her and then never do anything about it. But its gotta change, now! My life is on cloud nine and I never wanna fall off it, Im in college now, why shouldnt I just take a chance at whatever comes my way

That Girl

Do you know what to do when your voice sings that tune
Your heart skips a beat as your walking down the street
Everything just rhymes and you barely find the time
That girl you see before you is the only girl you want
All the power of the gods just seems to shine from above
Her eyes seem like the only ones meant to see and you look into them deep and your eyes look so green.
Her laugh just makes you tingle and her walk just makes you smile
Everything about her just makes her seem worthwhile.
But you know exactly who you are and you're so close but yet so far
Before you can get to where she is and you just cant find the exact word
as to how you feel but this is so real
Because it is a dagger of the mind that you see when your asleep but it is when your awake that the dagger you can reach.
But how can it be real if it actually seems so far
Even though you can see her being exactly where you are.
Whatever way she looks at you just makes you feel so goofy and how can you compare her to anything that’s loopy.
She walks beside you and you just seem oblivious but when she is nowhere near that everything is obvious.
You try and try but you cant fly and you aint got no game and you have nothing left to say
You just cant hook line and sinker but you just wanna be with her
But you don’t know if she likes you if anything other than a friend
But you know that everything will work itself out in the end.

A Work in Progress

I look in the mirror and cant figure out what I see
Is it the kid I saw two years ago, what about 5, what about 3 months ago
Who is looking back at me
How can one minute you be happy, then your mind becomes a traitor and turns on you
Staring into your own eyes, trying to figure out what you really are
Not knowing where you went wrong, what you did that was right or what you could have changed
Happy one second and then not even able to remember what happiness is the next
Mind being your friend and letting you forget and then being your enemy and reminding you or all your mistakes
Trying to look at yourself and actually be happy with what you see and not wanting to change everything
Maybe change is the answer you think to yourself, but why cant you just be comfortable being who you are?
Life is spinning and spiraling around you and all you want is a moment of happiness where everything you thought was right
To be able to go back to that one moment and change that fatal mistake you wish more than anything you could take back
Knowing that as much as you try that mistake will be in your mind forever and you'll never be able to forget it
Yourself being a work in progress

Rain Soaked Pages

The darkness opened, shining a pervailing light down to the ground. Looking up I see almost a smiling face. I smile and feel happy as the rain disperses. My thoughts belong to myself and no one else. The rain soaked pages of the book dry, giving a distinguished wrinkle to the pages. With every last rain drop, a little bit more of the ink begins to run thru the pages. The rain stops completely and the only drops hitting the pages fall from my hair. I keep on writing, I dont know where I'm going with it but I still go on, letting my emotions join the rain in soaking the pages thru. My pen hits the pages, writes a little but sinks thru the pages, lost within time. Where the pen leads, I never know, but it always seems to work. I write because i feel and I write because it helps me deal. If ever there was a time I needed to figure out what to do, the pen and paper are always where I head to, it doesn't seem to judge, it only listens

Getting life back on track

How do I make it through the day
Why do my feelings get in the way
Where does the time go
I just need to know
Where am I supposed to be
Cuz all I feel is misery

(Chorus)
Im just trying to run
Trying to hide
Trying to let my fears subside
Letting my life pass before my eyes
I dont know where I should go
I need to know right now
You cant relive the time you lost
Got to accept the mistakes you made


I Don't know what I'm trying to say
All I know is I played the game and lost
My past is whats holding me back
Trying to get my life back on track
But I can't

(Chorus)

Someone New?

Thinkin bout you sitting here
When Im with you I have no fear
My heart divides
And I recognize
How life could be so dear
Im staying here to try
To win your heart right now
Dont know what Im doing anyhow
Ive held you close and I dont think I could go back
The fire in my heart just ignites
In the darkness I see you and all is light
Not giving up this fight for you
My voice seems to be in lyrics
Everything seems to have a rhythm
The tapping of my feet and the blinking of your eyes
Just seems to got me hypnotized
You got me in some sort of trance
I know I dont stand any chance
My legs are shaky
And my hands are aching
Because I cant stop moving around
Got me energized, wanting to run downtown
You havent stopped running through my head
Even while Im sleeping in my bed
Your always catching me off guard
I plan on even trying very hard
Dont know if I want to stop thinking about you
not even sure if I actually like you
Just kidding, I do
Its like the stars began to fall in place
And now I can only see your face
Im writing and writing and im trying and trying
But my head is all confuzzled
And trying to get to you is like trying to figure out a puzzle
Ill just be chillin and I'll ponder
And then my mind will start to wander
Then my mind will drift away
And thats all I can really say
But you have been in my mind everyday
Since the moment that I said "Hey I dont know your name."