Time for Change

If life hands you lemons you make lemonade, right? But what if life hands you a something the size of a grapefruit? Is there something your supposed to do? Is there some sort of handbook that I never got, something to tell me how to make it through these things without screwing up? How am I supposed to be able to do things if I am so worried about the consequence? Life cant be perfect right, everyone makes mistakes throughout their lives. My life has always been played cool, I just look to how I feel, but I never go with it, I look on with ambition but no action. My heart tells me to go but my mind tells me no, and thats why i get stuck in the middle between where I am and where I want to be. I never work on my courage and just do something that feels right to me. Girls for instance, a topic that makes my brain turn into scrambled eggs just spinning like a smoothie in a blender not noing which way is up. When I like a girl I basically do nothing and then get jealous when she finds someone else, when I shouldnt. If I want something so much, I should be able to take matters into my own hands and I dont know, maybe actually asking that girl out, but no I sit around and just think about how I like her and then never do anything about it. But its gotta change, now! My life is on cloud nine and I never wanna fall off it, Im in college now, why shouldnt I just take a chance at whatever comes my way